Stupid People

Today has to be my rant on Stupid people and I'm sorry if you feel that you are being attacked but then you shouldn't be stupid. Let's start first with Mini's cheer shall we?
Mini missed cheer this past weekend (not sure if you're keeping up) due to the fact that it was raining and she had just started getting over being sick. (this will play a part init) So Monday I recieve an email from her coach that due to the fact that she was not at the game in the NASTY (coachs words) weather and the other girls and coaches (eye roll) were that mini and another girl would have to sit out the first quarter. Well I am the typical mom and I emailed the coach and told her that I did call and explain why she would not be coming and that they are 5 and just what is an excused absense. She then told me that her back was against the wall and she had no choice in the matter. (Ok side rant, You always have a choice and the way this was handled was extremely wrong)
So I was told to talk to commisioner of the league and commish explained it a little better, Because the fact that a mom had point blank asked and because the coach brought Mystery Mom with her when she asked the Commish and because there were others around the Commish had to be the one to make the call. (I get it. I really do.) I told her I completly undertand and I would be ok for mini's punishment to stand. I also mentioned that why we were talking about demerits and punishments that if this one was going to be looked at then the rest should also be done. (I know but I had a point at the time) I also informed Commish that the other little girl who was out would be cheering because she had a valid reason. I wasn't sure how the other mom felt but I was not going to allow that. (Again, I know not my child) Again Mystery Mom has been playing havoc with the whole squad and I'm a little tired of her. Ok on to the next Stupid person.
We ordered checks because we needed some and they screwed up. First they couldn't read the account so hubby took care of that, then they canceled the order with out telling us, I only found out because I was looking for them. Then, they double charged us and again no one said anything. So I called and spoke with this lady who had no emotion at all, and then she put me on hold and the music sucks. (you ever been on hold with crappy music?) She then told me that I would have to send documents on the fact that they screwed up. GRRR. that's all I'm saying.
You know I could really go on and on about all this but I am hungry and my phone is ringing. Dear god give me strength.
Later Days

A rambling saturday

Today started off like most Saturdays, we were going to get up to take Mini to her game. Problem was it was raining pretty hard and I decide that mini was not cheering in the rain. Does that make me a bad cheer mom? I don't think so. I think it makes me aware that my little one is only 5 and therefore should not be made to stand in the rain when her imune system is still new and fresh. I find these rules we have for our children a little silly. These are young girls who we are subjecting to stand out in the rain or even in the cold and cheer.
If they had to try out for the team I think I could understand it a little better but since I paid for her to be on the team then I think that as parents we should be allowed to have a little more say. Not only that the league doesn't pay the dr's bill if she get's sick so why, as parents, do we allow them to bully us into letting our children play in the pouring rain when normally we would not?
They compare it to when the girls get into high school. Well to bad, they are not in high school yet and they are sure not ready to be judged by the high school cheerleader standards. So I kept her home.
If you're keeping track with me you may be aware that I am in search of another job. I love everything I do but there is so much that I want to do that I have to have money in order for this to happen. I am still working the third book in the Amity House series and am working a few other things as well but I have to have some where to do all of this and I fear that I am runniong short of places. So here I am working for an at home company and looking for another company to give me more money.
I am also here ticking off different people because I will not allow someone to mistreat my daughter. I am still struggling with the everyday stuff but so far today I think I'm doing ok. It's and everyday process and I am taking day by day. Well that is my Saturday happy weekend.

Feeling Lost

It's funny how emotionally drained a person can be. I mean I feel like I should have recovered by now and I am trying to get past but I am just not making. I find myself checking not because I don't trust but because I am afraid. I'm not this person. I shouldn't have to be this person and yet all I keep doing is wondering what's going on. I'm lost. Completly lost, I've never been here before and I find that I am having a hard time coming back from it. I don't know what to do, and if I say anything it's "Aren't we passed this?" But here I am, still stuck, unsure of what is going on. For the reassurance that was there yesterday is slowly slipping away today and I can't help but go back to that place. Can I stress, I am not this person. I am not that so blinded with jealusy that I can't make it over the hump, but I am so lost and alone that I can't seem to get out of the slow downward spiral I seem to be putting myself in. Am I tortoring myself because I feel that I need it? Or am I seeing something that is not there, but truly is? I feel disconnected and no matter how hard I try it doesn't seem to be getting back. Have I lost? Was there even a way to win? I can't talk about it because it's eggs shell that I am walking on. What else do I do? What else can I do? I'm isolated and even though it wouldn't seem like it I am truly alone in this silent battle. So alone that all I can do is go over it in my head a thousand times and not be sure what else to do. God what do I do.

Friday, Oh thank God.

Have you ever had one of those weeks that just seems to go and go? Yeah, well that has been the last few weeks for me. Even the weekends seem to fill with activity. But today is Friday and I have to say, "You're so pretty." This week has been hell.
From the the fact of forgetting mini's hoodie to the fact that my days have just run together. So here is my weekend thing. Mini has a game on Saturday and a Birthday Party. (Yep thats what I said) then I have work on Sunday, at some point I have to squeeze in laundry and Chuck E Cheese. (Yes I bribed mini to be good)
It's been forever since hubby and I had some time and I am missing it. I'm just blah, right now. And then comes Monday where it all starts all over again. Mini has practice and I have a meeting for my Avon and will miss it. But we all do what we have to...
So what are your plans peeps?

Mini Me's heartbreak

Ok, let me start this off by saying that I didn't mean to. My little Mini Me is my pride and joy and I really didn't mean too. Mini is a cheerleader for the flag football team. We have been ordering things left and right. I got her a cute cheer bag for her stuff and other various things. I even have a decal for my car. Anyway last night as they were passing out the Cheer Hoodies the unthinkable happened. Mini didn't get one. It's not that I didn't want her to have one it's just that...well, hell It's just that I forgot about her. I've never done that with anything, She goes everywhere with me she gets things with me and I forgot her hoodie. I'm not sure why this was a big deal. Normally she's ok with things like that. She may pout for a bit but she gets over it.
Oh, no. Not last night. Last night it seemed like I had just told her our puppy died. Her heart was totally broken. She cried so hard at the fact that I didn't get her one. She wouldn't even come near me during the water break. She asked her daddy if he could get the water from her bag that was sitting by me. When I did finally get her in my lap for a quick hug she began crying all over again causing the coaches to ask "Is she ok? Did she fall?"
"No" I said with a shake of my head. "She didn't get a hoodie." Thankfully the coach pointed out that she too forgot her daughter. But did her daughter cry like that? Nope and normally Mini wouldn't have either. Practice was called early due to the upcoming storm. "We're going to Walmart." (I should mention that I am normally not the mom who buys her kid a toy because of the kid not getting their way. but last night...) "Baby, how about I get you a Barbie." she sniffed and said ok. adding that she still wanted the hoodie.
1 $10 Barbie and Barbie Movie later, I am curled up in bed with my little Mini me watching the Barbie Movie. (My guilt is heavy) and we talk about forgiveness. She wasn't upset with me anymore and we were friends again. But here I am today trying to see if I can get a spare hoodie. I've never seen her cry like that before....So here's hoping my little Mini has a better day

Sunday

Today was a something different. Today started out early, my family and I went to church to witness my grandparents join the local Methodist Church. It was really nice there, everyone was very warm and friendly.
After that we enjoyed breakfast at our favorite place, Dennys, Then it was off to the store to get a birthday present for mini's friend. Today was the first birthday party of the school year. We drove out and I introduced myself and mini and the young mans grandmother replies "Oh, we've heard all about her." Surpisingly I have heard this quite often over the years. I hope it is a good thing. So we are getting ready for this next week. I hope that everyone has a good one. I'll catch up tomorrow.

Saturday

Good Morning people, for just a moment I would like to say thank you to our troops and our service men. With out all of you we would not enjoy the freedoms that we have. Now for another moment I ask that everyone take a moment to remember those lost in the World Trade Centers................................

Ok, thank your for your moment...Now on to the show. Today is Saturday Sept. 11. We went and picked up the mini me's cheer pics and they turned out better then I thought they would seeing as how that day it was a lot hot and a little chaotic. But of course the mini was just as cute as she can be. If your a facebook friend then you've already seen it. Yesterday the mini got sent home from school. The nurse called to tell me she was not feeling well and that she did not want to come home but she was running a bit of a fever. "Not a problem, I'll be there in a minute" I said. The nurse then went it on to praise my sweet little one saying how good she did about remembering my phone number. "I have fourth graders that come in here and they don't know their parents number"..(just in case you were wondering "mini" is in kindergarden. so I guess that was impressive.) So today she is sick. Which sucks because there was a lot she wanted todo. Anyway that is the start of our saturday.

Day at the Dr.

I'm not sure if I ever mentioned this but I am a diabetic. It's ok for the most part. I've learned to deal with it. The part that I really hate though is the blood work visits (which is odd since I love tattoos and vampires) So today I had to go to the doctor and get a lab work sheet to go to the lab to get blood drawn.
I went in and there was a temp there, (already you can see my excitement) Now I am sure the woman is really smart and nice but when she explained to me that she didn't know where they kept the "V's" I was ready to...well it doesn't matter. Right after I told her it was cool and I'd wait for the Dr. to rewrite the lab, another girl came in with the same request. She gave her name (I couldn't tell what it started with) But the temp she just walked over to the wall of files and quickly found her information...Really? My last name is not that hard to spell and yet you can't seem to find it?
Ok so lets skip to where I got the blood work and had to go back to the Dr. to get a continous montor put on. I walk through the door and temp says "I'm sorry but I still can't find your file." (Insert a slight rolling of the eyes) "Thats fine since I don't have to see the Dr. I'm only meeting a Rep." Ok so what I might have said was I don't care. but the above sounds better. Anyway, I'm playing on my phone (my brother got me into Wordfued, which is Word with friends for the Android) when temp says in a nervouse voice "I don't think your suppose to be on your phone." hmm, I'm really starting to doubt this woman at this point. But I had it on silent and I pretended that I couldn't hear her.
Please note that sometimes people tend to annoy me. I can't help it, it just happens, and as annoying as people are it is very possible that you will find yourself blogged about. Since I don't use names you can't prove it and if you can...well get over it.

A Tuesday Grr

From the moment I woke up this morning I knew something was off. To start off with we woke up a little behind, The mini me was in a grumpy mood and fought about what she wanted to wear. Then as we argued out the door we each had to make two seperate trips back into the house for various things we forgot.
So I got the mini off to school then came home to find that are sweet loving dog, Abby, ate mini's favorite pair of headphones. Then I had to find a card that was lost and try to put the house back together before going up to the main house and do some chores. I was supose to work today and thanks to the rain and crappy net connection I had to quickly call in. (So don't like doing that) Now I'm more stressed and had to go to the store to get some food. We were out of everything and after spending almost $200 I came home to find that I may not have bought all that we need. This day is so sucking and it's not done yet.