Week of Ugh

So many things have been floating in my head here lately. For some strange reason I feel like I'm drowning in emotion. This week has felt like it was hard for me to breath and yet here I am...Yes, maybe I should look into the therapy but that is too expensive and I would be the person that would spend the money to just sit there and look off into space and I just don't think that would help. 

My thoughts are made up of flashes of past and present, thoughts and feelings. It's like a continues movie reel that I am unable to stop and the idea of actually voicing everything just makes me cringe. Something I have learned over the years is that death happens and yet life goes on. Something tragic happens every day and yet the world continues to turn. We continue go through the motions to show people that we are ok. 

This week I've felt like I have been in a bubble. For some reason everything has just got to me showing me once again that even I can't out run those horrible things called emotion. Does it make me weak? I don't think so, I personally think it makes me human, I think that not being able to voice everything makes me weak and yet that is just where I sit. I'm a "fake it til you make it" type of girl only this past week its been hard. Then of course to top that off I have people who are making it hard on me in the world of cubes.

When someone you see everyday seems a little off it is not a good idea to continue to pick at them, its also not a good idea to point out that you feel like the world should actually revolve around you. I know you find this to be a very strange statement since I welcome you to my world but this is about my life so just deal with it. Unless you are signing my check in the world of cubes you run nothing and in the grand scheme of things you are the low man on the pole so you need to get over whatever it is your entitled too.

Maybe I've been a little sensitive this week but my threshold for bullshit was reached this week and I just think that sometimes other people need to keep their filters on or just get some ducktape to help with their outburst of idiotic noise that really needs to be kept to themselves. If I wanted to wait on you and your needs all day I would have gotten a job in the food industry, but since I didn't that must mean you happiness is not high on my list of things. Even I know you check the thought the earth is there to circle around you and your feeling at the door and begin to think of others. Even if you don't want to think of others you learn to stay quiet and do your job and if you feel that this is just too much to ask of you well I have a solution for that too. Quit.....

But on top of the fact that I was having to listen to others whine and cry over things that most adults just shrug at I have to remind these people that I have a life outside of the world of cubes and that sometimes I am human. Sometimes I have to just let things roll of me because at the end of the day I'm just happy to have a good job and I am just happy that no one got harmed. Though here lately it has been close.

Oh well heres to a better Saturday

Later days

A Little Ripper History

Happy Sunday to all my faithful followers, I hope this past week has been good for you. For me it was back to business as usual, well except for the day off on Monday...I don't want to say tragedy is getting easier for me but I am finding that I can breath (this may be because of the medication). Everyday I find reasons to remember those I've lost and have a smile and that makes it a little more bearable. But with keeping with the tragic theme and the fact that we are slowly approaching the Haunted season I wanted to touch base with a little history lesson, what is it you may ask? Well before we go into it I would like to point somethings out, we as people are interested in the tragic death and unexplained occurrences that tend to happen in all parts of the world. We are fascinated by the gruesome unexplained murder sprees that tend to have no reasoning behind them. And my topic for today is, of course, one of the biggest unsolved mysteries. The reason for this topic is because on this day in history a body was found....

Jack the Ripper

This is the name given to the serial killer who became known for the brutal massacre of several women in the Whitechapel district of London  in 1988. "Jack" was also known as the Whitechapel Murderer and the Leather Apron, but it was the moniker of Jack the Ripper that took root and has held the fascination of people for years. Even though it is believed that he had at least 11 victims during his reign of deadly horror there were 5 that really took the spotlight. These 5 women would become famous with their gruesome deaths, Mary Ann Nichols, Annie Chapman, Elizabeth Stride, Catherine Eddowes and Mary Jane Kelly. 

Mary Nichols's body was found on August 31, 1888, Annie Chapman's body was found today September 8,1888 in a door way with her abdomen slashed open and her two cuts on her throat. (a really bad way to go if you ask me)  On September 30,1988 with in hours of eachother Elizabeth Stride and Catherine Eddowes would meet very similar fates and would be found, though in Strides case there would be questions on whether or not this would be due to Jack. Mainly because with her murder it appeared to be "unfinished" where as the others would be cut completely opened. But perhaps the most famous of these brutal murders was that of Mary Jane Kelly's. Her body was found November 9,1888 in her small one room flat unrecognizable. 

So what would drive someone to commit such gruesome acts? And why would these act of brutality be committed against  these women? And why were they unable to solve these murders? All very good questions and they each have some equally good answers. The problem is that no one really knows the truth except for those that were the victims and the person who took their lives. During the investigation the police received several letters from the supposed killer would help create the "Jack the Ripper" persona and add more confusion to this case. 

At first it is believed that Jack may be part of the upper crust as some of the wounds were possibly "expertly" done, but the letters would put another theory in the minds of the readers. The letters contained several spelling and punctuation errors. And though some of them were considered hoaxs there were at least four that really held their attention. Mainly because these letters would hold details that were not widely known. There letters would show that there was no remorse in the brutal killings and the that this murderer would have a very twisted humor as he would make references to his victims and himself. 

In the movie "From Hell" Jack was suggested to be the royal family physician who took it upon himself to rid Whitechapel of the women who sold their bodies. He was suggested to have done this because the Prince had secretly wed one. 

While this theory is very interesting I personally find it hard to believe that a physician for the royal family would do something almost common. Why not just hire it out. But if you read the letters the fact that a physician would write that poorly also makes it a little hard to believe unless he wished to make people question the valid of the claim. There is a book that is out there that suggest he may have been a butcher, so from a doctor to a butcher....hmmm

Anyway no matter who this mad man was the world was fascinated with every move and every piece of information on this unknown man. He became a legend with-out and actual face. Not a hero but an unknown celebrity that led police on a merry chase and then just disappeared.  

Well thats the history lesson for today my happy readers. Today in history, 1888 London, Annie Champman was found