This past week has been one full of wisdom, excitement, sadness and hope for my little family. Its been something that I have kept to myself because I wasn't ready to talk about. And though I still am not ready to talk about every aspect I will at least bring you all some news. We found out that we are expecting another little girl. Since we have had names picked out for both cases we are extremely happy to know just what we are calling this prescious little bundle. For those that may or may not not I am all about family. I think that our family, though a little off kilter at times, are what makes us, Our ancestors are the ones that have paved the way for our future by allowing us glimpes into our pasts and it was because of this reason that we chose the names that we did. With that being said there has been a trend in my family that our younger girls share a name of the older female cousins in the family. We ended with two names that we both liked that were both family name, since most boys are given the name of the fathers side we decided this one could be given a name from the moms side and we debated on which one would suite. What we decided on what Sophia Michelle, named after my oldest cousin. But just like Mini, our newest member will of course be known as something else for this sake of privacy and this blog. For now I will just refer to her as babygirl.
It's always exciting to learn what you are having and we were more then pleased with the results. But I will ask that you my faithful follower will keep us in yoru prayers as we are praying for her to remain strong and healthy. Eventually I will go into that part further but right now I just can't. So now we will skip to the other emotions, I passed my final class in my B.S. program and was able to aply for my diploma. I have to say that I am truly happy because I have have been in school forever and am just ready to concentrate on somehting else for awhile and though I'm not looking forward to this part I guess I'll concentrate on my career. (Yuck) we are starting to build our wish list or regerstry for baby and Mini is getting more and more excited. I also think she getting more and more nervous but I'm hoping that it will turn out better. Well peeps that about it for right now. I'm sure I will have some pictures and other news to post soon so until then, goodnight world.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Sunday, October 23, 2011
My friendship woes.
Pregancy can bring out the worst in some people. I almost think that I can see that with me right now. But not in a homacidal kind of way. I think right now I feel a little used. See I am person that rarely can say no to others. If you need help I'm the one you can come to, I'll listen to your problems and not question your need to vent. But sometimes I feel that I am being taken advantage of.
I think that people believe our friendship means that they can have me do stuff for them with out really thinking that I care. Normally I don't care but it's the pressure that has been put on me lately that I am starting to feel. Last week for example, I was sick for the first part of it I was playing catch up for the rest of it. It was my last week of my college education and I was have just been worried over some other issues. It's during this time that I am asked to do a favor or that I am called and asked why I have done that favor or if I could hurry up. Here's the thing, I have a job, a husband, a house, a six year old and one on the way and they are important to my everyday life. I do often times forget things and I do try to make it up to people but I also have my own projects that I have to get done and I often lose track of time for others. So when people get upset with me because I have not been able to fit into their schedule or because I can't meet them right then and there or even give a good time that I can it does start to bring out a side of me that I don't always like.
I'm not perfect I know that I have surely done this to some of my friends but I do try to acknowledge that, that is not the only reason we are friends. And sometimes I feel that its about what I can do for people and not myself that they tend to like me. I know sounds high schoolish but right now thats how I feel. And right now I just need to be around people who kind of get that I don't always want to be the one you run to when you are having a technical issue. anyway thats how I feel. Later Days
I think that people believe our friendship means that they can have me do stuff for them with out really thinking that I care. Normally I don't care but it's the pressure that has been put on me lately that I am starting to feel. Last week for example, I was sick for the first part of it I was playing catch up for the rest of it. It was my last week of my college education and I was have just been worried over some other issues. It's during this time that I am asked to do a favor or that I am called and asked why I have done that favor or if I could hurry up. Here's the thing, I have a job, a husband, a house, a six year old and one on the way and they are important to my everyday life. I do often times forget things and I do try to make it up to people but I also have my own projects that I have to get done and I often lose track of time for others. So when people get upset with me because I have not been able to fit into their schedule or because I can't meet them right then and there or even give a good time that I can it does start to bring out a side of me that I don't always like.
I'm not perfect I know that I have surely done this to some of my friends but I do try to acknowledge that, that is not the only reason we are friends. And sometimes I feel that its about what I can do for people and not myself that they tend to like me. I know sounds high schoolish but right now thats how I feel. And right now I just need to be around people who kind of get that I don't always want to be the one you run to when you are having a technical issue. anyway thats how I feel. Later Days
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Gloomy Day
I've noticed that I have been having some gloomy feeling type days here lately. It doesn't really start out that way but there is always something that triggers it and I begin to question things. I'm not sure if its hormonal, well I'm pretty sure it's not all hormonal but I can tell you that I don't like it. Like today Roo brought Mini something home from her gp's. She was suspose to go visit the F.O.'s last weekend but she was sick and we decided that she needed to stay home. It wasn't even that fact that Mini got something I think it just hit home the fact that I'm not well liked with that section of folks. I never did anything to them but for some reason I'm just not good enough and that puts me in a gloomy mood.
They won't even get in touch with Roo, they go through the GP's and that's really starting to suck. It's like we don't exist. The only part about us that is there is Mini. Don't get me wrong I am glad they love Mini, in fact I would be truly pissed if they didn't but it hurts that they don't even want to see Roo. Now I'm thinking that the only thing I am to them is just the birth mom and not much else.
I can't help when these thoughts hit, I don't know what their damage is because I know my little family is awesome but it still hurts that we are just an after thought. Oh well I guess I can't be liked by everyone.
They won't even get in touch with Roo, they go through the GP's and that's really starting to suck. It's like we don't exist. The only part about us that is there is Mini. Don't get me wrong I am glad they love Mini, in fact I would be truly pissed if they didn't but it hurts that they don't even want to see Roo. Now I'm thinking that the only thing I am to them is just the birth mom and not much else.
I can't help when these thoughts hit, I don't know what their damage is because I know my little family is awesome but it still hurts that we are just an after thought. Oh well I guess I can't be liked by everyone.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Fair Day
Once a year the Texas State Fair opens for about month, the schools at this time get together and send home fair tickets so that the kids can get into for free. This is also a way to entice the parents to spend the money on more things then you actually need. But I have to say that today we had a really good time.
Today Mini and I got up got dressed and went to the state fair with my parents and cousin. We looked at the new and upcoming cars and of course I found a few that I liked. We went on the Midway (something I haven't done in years) Mini won not one but both games that she played for the first time
She got another smaller pilloow pet (horse) and a little tiger. She got to run through one of the fun houses and ride in one of the hounted houses that was always my favortie. I wasn't able to do any of the rides due to the pregancy but it didn't stop me from having a good time watching the mini. After talking to Mini we decided that we will be going back when her daddy can go with us. Well thats all there is today folks. It's off to do some school work then bed.
She got another smaller pilloow pet (horse) and a little tiger. She got to run through one of the fun houses and ride in one of the hounted houses that was always my favortie. I wasn't able to do any of the rides due to the pregancy but it didn't stop me from having a good time watching the mini. After talking to Mini we decided that we will be going back when her daddy can go with us. Well thats all there is today folks. It's off to do some school work then bed.
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