I've noticed that I have been having some gloomy feeling type days here lately. It doesn't really start out that way but there is always something that triggers it and I begin to question things. I'm not sure if its hormonal, well I'm pretty sure it's not all hormonal but I can tell you that I don't like it. Like today Roo brought Mini something home from her gp's. She was suspose to go visit the F.O.'s last weekend but she was sick and we decided that she needed to stay home. It wasn't even that fact that Mini got something I think it just hit home the fact that I'm not well liked with that section of folks. I never did anything to them but for some reason I'm just not good enough and that puts me in a gloomy mood.
They won't even get in touch with Roo, they go through the GP's and that's really starting to suck. It's like we don't exist. The only part about us that is there is Mini. Don't get me wrong I am glad they love Mini, in fact I would be truly pissed if they didn't but it hurts that they don't even want to see Roo. Now I'm thinking that the only thing I am to them is just the birth mom and not much else.
I can't help when these thoughts hit, I don't know what their damage is because I know my little family is awesome but it still hurts that we are just an after thought. Oh well I guess I can't be liked by everyone.
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