Another week closer!!!

Hello,
It's been almost two weeks since my last blog....Wow if that doesn't sound like the start of a confessional lol. Anyway it has been about two weeks. It's not that I haven't had anything to blog about it just that I have been busy and yet not really busy. I haven't been online all that much as I've been dealing with some issues on my end. Sometimes things can't quite be told online. Of course somethings I really just can't share and that is my thing. I'm an open book for the most part but I can't allow every single detail out there then what would I put in my memoirs? Hmm, did I even spell that right?
Anyway I've been playing mom at Mini's school quite a bit first with the book fair then with her field trip last week. I'm helping out with pictures this week and then field day next week. Of course we are almost done with the school year and once again it will be time for summer. I'm a little excited last year Roo was out of town on business and I was coping with that then the pregancy soooo, needless to say I'm looking forward for some rest this time around.
We've been doing a lot of talking (which is good cause we lost touch for bit) and we have both realized things we want and things we need. Of course many known, as I've shared in other posts, that we have started going to church. We really enjoy going and actually miss when we are not able to make it. We have made so many plans this past year that didn't turn out the way we wanted and that has really sucked. But we are learning that sometimes we need to readjust in order to survive. Mini is doing pretty well and of course the private stuff that I am writing down. All names and faces will be changed to hide the identiy and to keep the privacy off all invovled. It will be like that hole "Little Moments" book that Oprah endorsed. You know where the guy stated all the stuff he did but didn't really do only a few sentences may be  true. Yep it will kind of be like that. Ok well my rambling knows no end tonight so I will just say we are another week closer to the end of school. And I will tell you all goodnight.
Later Days

Bike rides and Crazyness

Sometimes in life things just happen that you never plan. Hello to all my faithful readers. I hope your week has been good. As I sit here I honestly can't remember what I told you all about in the last post. Needless to say parts of my world have been flipped upside down but that is actually stuff I don't want to talk about. Maybe I should look in to a shrink. I think sometimes it may do me good but then I think "I don't really feel that crazy" anyway. So I'll stay quiet and hope that things work out the way they need to.
Mini got a bike for her birthday, she was excited about this because the last bike she had she didn't get a chance to ride that much. So we had to start all over with the bike lessons. As of today she was able to push off and start all by herself. We've been practing everyday and she is getting better everyday. Now if we can get her to actually use her brakes instead of just bailing out...
I was stopped by one of her teachers the today and asked if I knew what she chose to do for her talent in her class talent show earlier this week. I knew she chose to sing a song. I always love when she sings mainly because she normally makes it up as she goes. Then her teacher asked if I knew what she sang about. I told her I think she said about her sister. She then proceeded to sing to me the song Mini made up for her class.
Sweet Sophie,
I'm sorry you went away, went away, went away.
Dear Sophie,
I wished you could have stayed, could have stayed, could have stayed.

I had to stop her at this point because I was about to start tearing up just a bit. I know that this has been weighing on her mind here lately and sometimes it seems better then sometimes not so much. I can honestly say that right now she is my focus and we still encourage her to talk about her and ask any questions she may still have. This past weekend we opened Sophia's memory box. It was the first time we had been in it. I sort of remember the nurses showing me stuff that they were putting in it for us but my head was in a different place so I didn't really remember. At first we wanted to wait until I felt ready, but then we just didn't look in it. I wasn't really sure if I'd every really be ready. Then Mini asked if we could see it and look at. She wanted to see something of her sister. So I guess it was time. There were some tears and she asked some questions, That night she didn't sleep really well but she at least began to open up about what she has been thinking. I still have some things to go through but I'm still working through some issues of my own.
Well I think I took enough time tonight I guess you should all rest easy. Goodnight my readers. Hug your children extra tight...