It has begun

Ah, the first day of school. Can't you feel it in the air? The night before we spent chilling and getting ready for the next day. Mini wanted wavy hair and since I don't have a crimper I chose to go a different route. We braided it all. While her hair was wet I put several braids and let her go to sleep with it so that it could dry. Once she get's up and you are able to get the braids undone then Mini's hair is crinkly.
Mini decided for the first day to be bright. I always love it when Mini chooses to wear bright colors. She went with a purple shirt, neon yellow skirt flower print tights. It reminded me of the 80's style and she looked so cute. She popped up out of bed and was excited to go for her first day. She says she's going to like her teacher and the kids in her class. The l.s. from last year is not there so we are hoping to have a smooth year. She came home with no homework for her but of course some homework for me. lol every year the parents have to be bombarded with paperwork the first day. I filled everything out and once again sent it back for the next day. Now I have to tell you that Mini got her hair cut yesterday after school. We have been telling her she needed a trim so I (yes I can see you cringing) tried to trim the ends. The problem was that she has had so many different layers that when I trimed the end it showed one of the layers and looked like I angled it up. (I'm not a stylest) The night before school I didn't notice it as bad and since we were braiding her hair it didn't really seem to mater of course after she got out of school yesterday and her hair had flattened out you could really see the mistake and I just couldn't let her go back today with it like that. So I called and made the appointment for it to be trimmed. Now when the girl trimmed it yesterday she tried to keep the length but when she was done I could still see a gap so I told her to fix it. Mini's not real happy with the short but she's not hating it either. We told her it would grow out.
This morning she was not so bright eyed. She got up dragging she's will get back into her routine by next week I hope, she got dressed and we went to school. For the second day my little fashionista went with a uniform blue skirt, a yellow and white top and some pink roman sandals. We went back and forth with the sandals but it turned out to look cute. Her hair is trimmed but I think we will still be able to do stuff with it. Anyway that was pretty much all there was to it. I'll keep you posted on how the Mini does.

End of Summer Review

Our summer started out with getting these two. Hershey and Jasmine. This was a way for me to fill a void what's funny is the fact that I don't think it was my void that it filled. Mini has gotten really attached but then again so have they. They are just like Abby they tend to stay in Mini's room more often than not. Also this summer Mini has decided that she wants to be a photographer. The picture to the left is one that she took and edited. For seven I think she did a pretty good job. Some of the pictures on this post were done by her. I will encourage anything that Mini dreams of being, well except for a drug addict. I might can be ok with a dealer but I think that would be pushing it. (haha pushing it...dealer haha get it?) Sorry Lame joke. Below is a picture of Abbygail. Mini was having some western fun and she actually allowed her to put a hat on her. I think it may have had something to do with the gun. Now before you go calling CPS the gun is totally fake. Her poppa had gotten it for her when we took a family vacation to San Antonio a few years ago. I may be able to shoot caps but I don't think we are going to go that way.

 So Abby was a good model. After having her for so long she will let Mini do just about anything to her. Funny and Sad alll at the same time.
Mini then decided that I needed my picture taken. This one was one of the better one. I don't know how she does it but she finds away to get some of the worst pictures of me. I really need to teach her about lighting. lol. This summer everyone helped us keep Mini entertained. This was difficult sometimes but we all did a pretty good job. At the beginning of summer she */went and spent some time with her grandma, then we got to go and celebrate my brothers wedding to the girl of his dreams. When Mini went to spent some time with grandma we put some fake color in her hair. Thankfully this was not the color that it was. This was just because we were bored and she had been begging us to color it and since we had the spray I said let's do it. I kind of like the purple hair. She got go to the ft worth zoo she has always loved the animals. I kind of wish she does something with animals

When we asked Mini if she had fun she told us that her favorite part was seeing the monkeys but no really it was the penguins. After the zoo we got her home and went to the wedding. I'm still so happy for my brother. They held it on my Birthday weekend so I think that's good luck. I turned 30 and they got married. It could't be more perfect. Then Mini and I went with my parents camping for a week. At this point Mini hadn't been home but a full week. Once we came back home from that trip Mini and I headed off to Boo's & S-i-L's to house sit for their honeymoon. Mini's favorite part was the fact that they had a community pool and she got to play in the water daily and with other kids. From that visit she also got to stay then night with her cousins who she absolutely loves. She enjoyed it because she told me she could pretend that her youngest cousin was like her sister. (I teared up, she didn't see) 

And yes I know that we will be in trouble when she gets older. She already to grown up for her own good sometimes. During that stay I enjoyed hanging out and getting my tan on. Of course by the second day I was a little lobster red. Thankfully it wasn't a full burn just a slight one and I turned a good golden brown. Thank you lord for my french heritage.

Sometimes the greatest thing in life are those simple moments. This summer we concentrated on trying to live those moments as a family. It's never been hard to live like that but it has been  hard to appreciate some of the time that we have together. Roo and I had spent so much time together that we both needed a few days, though we both hated he knew that I needed to get away for just a bit. It was also during the house sitting that I started looking for a job. I am still working on my teaching certificate but I need something now. I'm not even dwelling on that. The other simple moment that we took was a family yard day. My yard was horrible. I'm not even going to describe it, it was that bad. So Poppa decided that we were all gonna get up early and work on my yard. 2 mowers, 1 weed-eater and a tractor later I could see where Mini wanted to play. We got rid of a lot of crap that day.

After some more time with family, (she got to stay another week with her grandma and cousins) It was nearing time for school to start back up so her Poppa and Gigi wanted to take one last hoorah and go to Galveston. Roo and I went many moons ago and though I hated to miss out I'm so glad she got to go. We found out her new teacher is this year and Roo and I went to go meet her and do some PTO stuff while Mini got to play in the water and learn how to boogie board. Yes I'm jealous, but I'm so happy she had a great time. 

 Tonight is the last night before school starts tomorrow and she is already in bed. She wants wavy hair tomorrow so I just spent an hour braiding it. It was a little difficult this time around because of the dogs wanting to crawl all over her but we got it done. It's a little bitter sweet. Of course every year the end of summer has been bitter sweet. I'm glad she will be going back to school but I'm sad about how quick she is growing up. I'm supposed to start my new job soon and again I'm a little scared. It's the first time in really 7 years that I haven't worked either close to the house or at the house. So this will take some adjusting on all of our parts. So as I say good night. to you all I will keep you all in my prayers and I hope you will do the same. This year started out so horrible but slowly and surely we are doing better. This summer showed me just how affected Mini was and again I am so great full for everyone that helped us to keep her busy and entertained. You just don't know how much it has helped. Alright well I've given you a rundown on our summer again I'm sorry if I didn't keep as good a blog posting then normal but sometimes you have to step it back. So goodnight children. I hope you all have wonderful first days. Good luck Teachers, ya'll will be awesome and your students will be fortunate to have. Love you all.  

 ME

Worse or Better

You know how people always give that certain look when they learn of a tragedy? Well for you sake's I hope you never are on the receiving. Of course I've also learned how their tone drops just enough to show sympathy and that really kind of irks me right now. But then again this weeks chalking up to not the best week in the world. 

I have this big ball of sadness just sitting on my chest and though I'm trying so hard to push things to the side this week is starting out not so well. To tell the truth I'm not really a lot of fun. I didn't think of it at first. I mean I knew that I was feeling blue but I couldn't put my finger on the why. Then I figured it out. Tomorrow is 6 months. I thought I was doing well. Most days I am but for some reason my body and mind are telling me something different this week. I've thought about her a lot more here lately and it hurts all over again. Needless to say I'm not really happy this week. Then of course there are some other things popping up that I'm just not handling very well and I'm not in the mood or mindset to share. I'm back to feeling lost and I don't like that feeling in my world. 

"It's always darkest before the dawn." I just wish I could see some dawn soon. I want something good to happen. Anyway that's my pitty party and I'll cry if I want to I guess. 

Later Days

Planning Halloween Mini Style

Good evening to all my faithful readers and welcome to another addition of my world. If you follow me on Facebook then you have probably heard this story but for those of you that do not then your gonna love it.
Mini has decided it's time to start picking out Halloween costumes. (Well ok I may have pointed out that she needed to start thinking about it mainly because of the budgets and what not.) So every day this past week and weekend she has come up with a new idea for Halloween. Some examples
For the Family
The Scooby Gang
The Jetsons
Tom & Jerry (not sure where I fit in with that one)
The Bratz dolls (Roo really loved that idea)
Zombies
Vampires
Witch Family

Ok so the above are just a few of the ideas she has had. She can even tell you who should be who. Of course she has had her very own ideas Princess, Cheerleader, Dancer, Cowgirl and so on. Oh and the living dead girl. I love that one, but no of those could have prepared me for today's Halloween idea.
Mini: (Running into the living room) Mom I know what I want to be for Halloween.
Me: Ok what? (She had mentioned Candy Land characters the other day and I thought we may still be on that one.)
Mini: A Slave.
Me: (After almost choking to death) Excuse me?
Mini: You know one of those Egyptian girls who do everything for the king.
Me: Um. you mean like a genie?
Mini: No not a genie a slave.
(By this time I am trying to not to laugh hysterically, which I fail. After I sober I simply ask why. This is the part that I sort of clench at. Sometimes Mini will go into some deep thought of detail and leave you wondering just where she came up with information. )
Mini: Because their outfits are so cute.
(Or there's that for a reason.)
There are so many ways this talk could have went and so many different directions instead of informing my 7 year old that she was talking about a Harem I went with my next question. "And where did you learn about this?"
Mini smiled (oh lord what do I have to block now?) Tom and Jerry.
And this is where I just become speechless. I have nothing. I stutter sputter and mumbler but I've got nothing. She is so proud of her Halloween costume idea and the fact that she can be a Slave. I once again corrected her and said "Let's just call it a genie." she asks if we can talk to Daddy about it and Roo of course said "She's too young." to which I counter with "I'd rather dress her up now while it can be innocent and cute instead of when she 15-17 and really see what it's about" Needless to say the "Genie" is still in the bottle and we are still discussing. I just thought you would enjoy the funness of Mini. Later Days

5 months

Five months have went by and there is still not a single day that I do not miss my little girl. There are so many of my friends that are now expecting and I am truly happy for them but also envious. I wish them joy in their pregnancies. I am still thankful for my family. It's gotten a little easier as we allow the time to pass quietly. Every month on the day that she was born I still feel the pain deep inside but it does get easier. In 20 more days it will be 6 months. Half a year has gone by. I'm not sure that I should be as ok as I am right now. I mean I still have moments of heartache. I'm still unable to look at things without tearing up and Mini is starting to talk about her more. But It's still getting better. Sorrow is still there and it always will be. There is still something missing but it does get better. Not so much better but sometimes easier. I will plan on going to see her this week sometime, Mini wants to visit and so do I but I may also find a reason that I can't. It hurts both less and more to visit.
I am at the stage I can smile and I can feel other emotions but then I can sit down and cry for the loss and the  things that I will not get to share. So that's it. It's been a little over 5 months and we are still here.
Later Days